hello michael,im feeling so down since i found out we not moving,the worst thing is as well i dont like being in this house know more. and thats no right but yesterday and today i'v come home from work and soon as i walk in the door i feel up tight,dont like feeling like that when this is my home for now,but i cant live like this no more dont know what to do for the best now if you know how i can cope with it please tell me michael
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michael i cant belive its your 21st birthday in less than a month,its going to be a hard day for mum,dad and the girls we never seen you on your 18th now its your 21st,its so not fair you were taken away from us for bothof your special birthday! life is so shit how i wish i was with you now,but i know you wont take me with you because of the girls and dad!
i will always love you michael no 1 can ever take that away from me! your heart broken mum always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
dont look like we moving :( / Michelle Wilson (mum)Read >>
dont look like we moving :( / Michelle Wilson (mum)
cant belive it michael we not moving! well it looks that way like 99% any way!how pissed off i am,cant belive how i feel i know i was looking forward to it but im now on a big downer,cant belive how my life is so shit,all the shit iv had in my life since i was born now this why cant things go right for me why???? why do him upstairs hate me so bloody much,all i want is some happiness why cant i have that?with him taken you away turned my life upside down inside out not knowing where the next minute was coming from,got me self up and running again best i could as in i wake up each day thats about it,now all i wanted was to be sort of happy,move away from here and try and start again without seeing you in every room i go in and not being able to cope with life! but know i cant even have that,god i dont want to live any more! im feeling so crap, i miss you so much michael i just want to be with you if i cant be happy!take me withyou please! hope to see you soon michael all my love always your heart broken mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
please help us out! / Michelle Wilson (mum)Read >>
please help us out! / Michelle Wilson (mum)
michael,i just cant belive our luck why is every thing going wrong why????
need some luck fast please help if you can,we dont know what else we can do right now,we feel so pissed off now, off to bed now michael! nite nite son love you see you in the morning xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
need some help michael x / Michelle Wilson (mum)Read >>
need some help michael x / Michelle Wilson (mum)
michael send us some good news for a change,all whats going on is getting me down so much i need some thing to make me smile again,i just dont know if i can cope much longer,as you know i'v had a bad week not wanting to be here again,i dont like feeling like that not with the girls and dad to look after and with every thing going on i need to be strong for them all but inside im falling apart please help me????? hope to hear about the move next week this is getting me down aswell as its not moving very fast for my likeing, more than likely be moving in the school holidays now as the girls only got 2 weeks left in school,we all just need a date that would make life a little easier at least we would know then! i cant wait to move its a lovely house aswell,will let you know soon as i know! off to bed now got a lay in tomorrow which will be great my body feels so tired lately just wish we could get away in the sun for a couple of weeks but with moving the money will be tight! nite nite son love you see you in the morning xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx your heart broken mum always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
Mchelle xxxx / Kelly Baldry Xxx (Friend xxx )Read >>
Mchelle xxxx / Kelly Baldry Xxx (Friend xxx )
Michelle i too have been feeling down & tearfull & i know how hard it is to hide it from everyone, at times i just want to be on my own but like u i never get too. I know what you mean when u say u love talking about Michael how it cheers u up in one way but upsets u in another, talking about them in past tense is not how it should be & its just so hard to understand why our boys had to be taken away from us, we love them so much. I know people probably look at us & think we are okay but if only they could feel the pain we have to carry in our hearts everyday of our lives they would know we will never be okay again. I went back up the garden Michelle its still flooded but i did see the Angel dont know how i missed it the first time it is absolutley beautifull & ii looks like it belongs just where u left it thank u so much Michelle.xxxxxxxxxxx I look forward to seeing u in october & this time i will be there to meet u xxxxxxxxxxxxx all my love to u & our two Angels Michael & Joe xxxxxxxx
having a few bad days dont know why just am!could because i got loads on my mind ,with moving and things and whats going on with the girls that dont help,i just dont knopw what to do about it all? so much going round in my head michael,my body feels so tired aswell i just cant be assed with any thing ,i feel like giving up right now on every thing better off not being here thats how im feeling and i know thats so wrong with having dad and the girls to worry about,but it dont how im feeling! if you can help me in any way please do! the pain i feel lossing you never goes away, i went to judo last nite and watched the girls and me and dad was chating to steve then dad gave him my phone and showed him the photo i got on the front of you,then we started talking about you which in one way was great because he hadnt forgotten you but sad in another way because you still be here nearly started crying had to hold it all in like i do most days! how i miss you michael there's not a day goes by that i dont miss you and ask WHY you were taken from us!
im going to try and get some sleep now michael! nite nite son love you see you in the morning xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
You made my day Michelle xx / Kelly Baldry Xxx (Friend xxxx )Read >>
You made my day Michelle xx / Kelly Baldry Xxx (Friend xxxx )
Michelle im so glad i will get the chance to meet you again it has really made my day. Keeley will be home in 3 weeks so i will have her laptop to use which means no more problems, i will be able to get into my e-mails than aswell so i will e-mail you my phone number & we can make arrangements before you leave home. I couldnt stop thinking about missing you all day yesterday i just felt so angry & upset but today you have cheered me up, i only live down the road from Joes garden in town so you can come to mine for a chat & cup of tea after the girls have finished there Judo. I think it is time to get rid of this comp & get a new one lol. I went up the garden yesterday afer i got your message & because of all the rain we had it was flooded so couldnt get close to the garden but i did see the flowers they were lovely, but not close enough to see the angel { my eyesight is terrible lol } so go back up there today. Thank you for being such a good friend Michelle all my love to you all. Kelly xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
So sorry i missed you Michelle xx / Kelly Baldry Xxx (Friend xxx )Read >>
So sorry i missed you Michelle xx / Kelly Baldry Xxx (Friend xxx )
Michelle im so sorry i missed you i am so gutted my comp is playing up again & i only got your message today, i wish i had given you my number so you could phave phoned me, my sisters were looking forward to seeing you too. I am feeling sad now as i really wanted to meet you and talk about our boys. I hope we have another chance to meet again one day you have been a good friend to me & that means a lot im so upset now, please forgive me. The girls done brilliant at there Judo you must be so proud of them i know Joe & Michael were watching over them just wish i had been there to see them will you give them my love Michelle. Thank you for going to Joes garden & for the flowers & Angel they are lovely you are a very special friend Michelle & i am just so upset that i missed you all my love sent to you & our special Angels Michael & Joe xxxxxxxxx Close
late nite again lol / Michelle Wilson (mum)Read >>
late nite again lol / Michelle Wilson (mum)
hello michael,so much for a early nite me and dad ended up going out to judo to pick gem up while she was fighting with pete her ribs got hurt,so we had to get her car home plus we didnt know if she would have to go hospital lucky she didnt well up too now any way lol,wait till morro have to see how she is,looks like she out for the judo comp this sunday,which is a big shame there was loads for her to fight aswell,hope she better by then but cant see it really! any way it now 1.45am and i meant to be going bed lol well i going now try and sleep as i got to get up for work ! nite nite son love you see you in the morning xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello michael,just wanted you to know that gem and kelly got a judo comp this sunday in portsmonth so im going to see joe's garden and meet his mum kelly,i cant wait after 3years of talking to each other i can put a face to her name now,i wouldnt of met kelly if you boys hadnt passed away,now i know me and kelly would both want you here instand of meeting each other but life dont do want you want it to do. i wanted to let you know michael! nite nite son love you see you in the morning xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hello michael, just let you know we all home safe and sound,all had good time got all the stuff to put away now :( dont like that bit of coming home plus all the washing drying and ironing to do! talk to you later son love you always missing you so much always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
well michael it's my birthday tomorrow and what a birthday it will be with half my family not here,dont know if i can be assed to open my card's dont seem any point really,its bad enough not having you here any more let alone having dad,gem&kelly away aswell!im going to find it really hard without you all here with me!its only a birthday though init,
any way im driving to butlins in bogner morro and the girls want to leave early so not going to be much of a birthday any way,going to try and leave about 9 go to the cafe first get some breakfast then off we go takes about 2half hours so long as we leave here on time should get there dinner time!im taking my laptop so im hoping i will get internet up there not going to be happy if i cant get on here to talk to you,im sorry if i cant it wont be for not trying! if you can visit me in my dreams tonight michael i would to see you and talk to you!
watch over dad&the girls for me till we are all back together again on monday!
your heart broken mum always till we meet again love&miss you 4 ever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
well michael they gone,im going to miss them all,cant belive this is going to be my 1st birthday without your dad since i was 16,im going to be 41 so its a bloody long time.
i told him to go because i knew he wanted to,its only a birthday nothing big now since youy been gone,because my family not all here so it's just not the same any more and never will be!
watch over them for me michael,they got to drive to dover first.im going to be worried till i see them again you know what im like!
now dad gone i got to house out ready for me and the girls to go butlins on friday!girls going to help me tomorrow any way,when it done got to pack as well lol,all go in this house lol!well im off to bed now michael,i will let you know when they get there ok!
love&miss you so much always will xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
look after dad and the girls! / Michelle Wilson (mum)Read >>
look after dad and the girls! / Michelle Wilson (mum)
michael i dont know if i told you but dad,gem&kelly off to brussel's tomorrow till monday to watch pete do judo in the world master's!
dad driving to dover then getting the ferry then driving to brussel's,i know it's a 3half hour drive to dover then 2hour's to wear they are staying,
they should all have a good time as they saying in the same place as pete and some other's from judo!they will have a few drink's more than likely lol,just want you to watch over them for me,im going to be worried sick dad driving that far.i cant go with them and watch 4days of judo you got to be joking lol,i can just put up with watching the girls that because i have to because im there mum.and i like to see them do well like they are likely!
me,karen&victoria off on friday to butlins till monday,so we all away just not togetther lol,but dad doing what he wants to do and im doing some thing for the girls!just wish you were with me!because i know you wouldnt want to go with dad lol!
i will let you know when dad is over there safe! watch over them all for me michael!
your heart broken mum always till we meet again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Looking forward to seeing you xxx / Kelly Baldry Xx (Friend xxx )Read >>
Looking forward to seeing you xxx / Kelly Baldry Xx (Friend xxx )
Hi Michelle just read your message to Joey please let me know when the girls are here for there Judo i would love to meet you there & watch them & after take you too Joe,s garden, it is just across the road from the mountbatton centre. it would be lovely to meet you all after all this time so looking forward to it xxxxxxxxxx Love Kelly Close
just wanted to tell you that the roses the girls brought mum&dad has now been planted in there own pots as they have grow enough and they are now out side so lets hope they carry on growing! love you alwaysxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
michael why is every thing got to go wrong for us???? just think we getting sorted and some thing happen's pissed me right off,but we think we got away round it so all being well its still going to work out like we want! if you can please help sort it out for us!
kelly got grading on saturday over cardiff so we off over there this weekend,that's the last 3weekend's we had judo stuff, and you know me i cant stand it now as your not there! i got to be there for the girls tho because that would be so wrong if i didnt!
she going for her brown belt just hope there people there good enough as kelly so she gets it! will let you know any way michael!
do you know what i cant belive i been talking to you on here for the last 3half year's,i tell you every thing thats going on because i dont want you to miss out on any thing thats happing in all of our lives, i do enjoy talking to you dont think i dont,this is my way of coping with life without you,i go mad when i cant get on here for any reason,it's hard to live without your site now!
i will always love you michael long as i live, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
watch over victoria / Michelle Wilson (mum)Read >>
watch over victoria / Michelle Wilson (mum)
michael need you to watch over victoria for us she having a really hard time at school right now,im thinking about pulling her out of there till we move now,she cant take much more shit from those kids,me and dad going to talk about it morro as dad coming work wih me its not a busy day for me,
why is it michael that life is so crap since we lost you???i will never no the answer to that will i!
we just worried about victoria its not fair she got to take all this at her age,she only 11 she had so much to put up with in her short life its just not fair,the other girls is the same they had to put up with nearly the same shit,
i cant wait to move just hope it helps the girls thats all i want,please watch over her michael! love you always ans for ever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
up at silly oclock again / Michelle Wilson (mum)Read >>
up at silly oclock again / Michelle Wilson (mum)
michael it's nearly 2in the morning again,cant belive i'v not gone bed yet rest of the house is a sleep but as always im doing other stuff on me laptop lol,at the mo im trying to do the family tree but not getting on to well.i text you today telling you we got our new house cant wait to move just wih you were here to move with us,its going to be so hard leaving this house with all the memory's we got of you in here,i know the live in our head but its still leaving your room knowing it was built just for you,girls our happy and not hsppy cuz they got to leave all there friends but they will make new one's,just hard for us all,not sure when we going yet hopefully in the next 8weeks,so the girls can see this term out at this school and start sept in the new 1!
you would love the new house michael we are right by a nice big green plus there's a park there,you could play all the football you wanted.i will miss this house so much but its for the best we move for all of us,it will do us all good to get away from here will miss the good friends we made over the years here,we will keep in touch with them but you know how it is you start off well then it all just stops.
i will keep you up to date when i know any thing michael,i hope your happy for us,mum and dad is well happy it will do us good like i said!
im going to try and get some sleep now as i got to be up at 7 :( on a saturday lol,oh yea its fathers day sunday if you could visit your dad in his dreams that would be great,we all so up glos for judo comp for kelly on sunday so watch over her for me please!
look after yourself michael just wish i was there with you to look after you!
nite nite son love you see you in the morning xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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